Ideas

Ever since I first started journaling all those years ago I always struggled to write something original, I felt like I was always coming back to the same topics, writing about the same things each time, bitching about things not changing.....

I guess it's about time I try and create some structure to my writing, I don't want to be writing about the same thing for years and years, i'd feel like I wasn't getting anywhere. I guess when I was younger I didn't exactly have a whole lot going on in my life so there wasn't too much to write about. That's only slightly the case now though, I think in some cases i've matured quite a bit and in other aspects of my life I probably haven't changed too much.

Even though in real life it may not seem like I have much to say I know that online or even just on paper I feel like I can write quite a bit, even if it's just rambling, that's still something to me. I've never been structured in my writing though.

There are so many different topics to choose to write about, getting coherent ideas on paper or in a blog is going to be a new thing for me. Structured writing is a must have for any journalist or fiction author, it's an essential skill for anyone that has to write for a living, or even just for communicating ideas.

If you were trying to read instructions for building something you don't want them to be garbled, you don't want to have to jump between pages to get to the right step.

I feel like I can say my whole life has been one big unstructured mess, from the start line to where I am now I don't feel like i'm in front of everything, i'm meeting one hurdle after another just a little bit too late. I should have predicted some things sooner, I should have known that I would need to make some decisions that could affect my future yet I put them off for too long.

I have a list of ideas that I would like to write something about, I think I could make a good enough attempt at them. I know i'll make mistakes and there may be times where i'm not making a whole lot of sense, that's ok, I know i'm going to make mistakes and I know that my writing not be the best or I might not have anything ground breaking to say, that's also ok, my opinion matters.

My return!

I knew this would happen, I knew I wouldn't be able to maintain this blog for long without a long break. It's like my written journal, it seems like I only write whenever I can't think of anything else to do. I should be able capable of a whole lot more than this, it's been almost 4 months since I last wrote in this, that is if my maths is correct...

So what have I done in that time? I could have said I was far too busy with work and with my life to write in this blog but that would be a lie. I mean sure i've had a few weeks where I haven't been able to do a whole lot more than work. I guess I just didn't make the time to write more. Even without work i've had plenty of time to do more than just play on the Playstation and watch TV, I really haven't done much more than that though.

I guess the biggest update I have for my many readers( crickets....) is the fact that i'm in the process of getting my driving license again, i'll get the test eventually, 5 attempts down, I have another few in me for sure..... I got back into doing driving lessons with the encouragement of my boss in work and a few suggestions from friends. I guess I sort of just jumped back into them again. The crazy thing about it though is the fact that I still knew how to drive, I had all the gears down fine, control wasn't an issue, learning all of the maneuvers again was and still is my biggest concern, as well as the observation and trying to eliminate all of the dumb mistakes i've been making. It was the dumb mistakes that made me fail the driving test so many times before in the past. Those small lapses in judgement however minor ended up being major. I haven't crashed the car yet but there's still plenty of time.

I'm still going at my job, i've been at it for over a year and a half now, and to think the longest job i've had before this one lasted only 3 months or so, i'm not a failure yet! I went ahead and put my name forward for supervisor training, I haven't exactly had a whole lot of training yet though. It's mainly been a few hours in a classroom type setting going over bullet points and reading from a booklet, not exactly the most interesting stuff.

I've also been somewhat interested in the technical side of things when it comes to doing the PFS, at this point i've only just been observing the supervisor doing it with me, I guess i've picked up a few things but i'm far from being at the point where I could do all of the computer stuff on my own, that's probably still a long way off.

Onto my social life, or what passes for a social life for me these days anyway/

I guess I haven't exactly been that social these last few months, other than birthdays and the odd night out I haven't really gotten the chance to be social with my friends. I don't know whether playing Playstation games and talking over a microphone counts as being social.

A big shocker for some of my friends would be the fact that I went on a date a few days ago. It wasn't that successful but at least i'm getting myself out there again. The last date I had was a few years ago and that really wasn't that successful either. I guess I can't really go on one date every few years and expect that things are going to miraculously go my way. I need to get out more, a lot more/

I guess on the social aspect me going for the supervisor training is a big plus, I mean it could still end in a major major failure and emotionally cripple me but I guess i'm getting more of a chance to talk to other people in a more professional way.

Two-for-one

This will just be a quick addition to my last post.

Since i'm new to blogging I still need to try and find a good length for each separate post. In my journaling on paper or on my laptop topics just seemed to come to me at random, there were many twists and turns, I started writing about one topic but then rambled for a few sentences and then somehow ended up writing about something else.

The good thing about having a blog is that I can just write about one or two topics and then publish it and then carry on. I don't have to break up my posts too often. I can also edit them where I see fit to suit my needs and what i'm feeling at that time.

The more I post the better i'll be at sticking to a certain topic, that is if I can pay attention for long enough and not get distracted by flashing lights and shiny objects, it's been known to happen.

I hope to be able to spend some time thinking about what i'd like to write about and get an idea of how often I should be publishing something new. I don't want this to end up like my journal, another failed venture after another. If I can be consistent then i'll be happy.