My return!

I knew this would happen, I knew I wouldn't be able to maintain this blog for long without a long break. It's like my written journal, it seems like I only write whenever I can't think of anything else to do. I should be able capable of a whole lot more than this, it's been almost 4 months since I last wrote in this, that is if my maths is correct...

So what have I done in that time? I could have said I was far too busy with work and with my life to write in this blog but that would be a lie. I mean sure i've had a few weeks where I haven't been able to do a whole lot more than work. I guess I just didn't make the time to write more. Even without work i've had plenty of time to do more than just play on the Playstation and watch TV, I really haven't done much more than that though.

I guess the biggest update I have for my many readers( crickets....) is the fact that i'm in the process of getting my driving license again, i'll get the test eventually, 5 attempts down, I have another few in me for sure..... I got back into doing driving lessons with the encouragement of my boss in work and a few suggestions from friends. I guess I sort of just jumped back into them again. The crazy thing about it though is the fact that I still knew how to drive, I had all the gears down fine, control wasn't an issue, learning all of the maneuvers again was and still is my biggest concern, as well as the observation and trying to eliminate all of the dumb mistakes i've been making. It was the dumb mistakes that made me fail the driving test so many times before in the past. Those small lapses in judgement however minor ended up being major. I haven't crashed the car yet but there's still plenty of time.

I'm still going at my job, i've been at it for over a year and a half now, and to think the longest job i've had before this one lasted only 3 months or so, i'm not a failure yet! I went ahead and put my name forward for supervisor training, I haven't exactly had a whole lot of training yet though. It's mainly been a few hours in a classroom type setting going over bullet points and reading from a booklet, not exactly the most interesting stuff.

I've also been somewhat interested in the technical side of things when it comes to doing the PFS, at this point i've only just been observing the supervisor doing it with me, I guess i've picked up a few things but i'm far from being at the point where I could do all of the computer stuff on my own, that's probably still a long way off.

Onto my social life, or what passes for a social life for me these days anyway/

I guess I haven't exactly been that social these last few months, other than birthdays and the odd night out I haven't really gotten the chance to be social with my friends. I don't know whether playing Playstation games and talking over a microphone counts as being social.

A big shocker for some of my friends would be the fact that I went on a date a few days ago. It wasn't that successful but at least i'm getting myself out there again. The last date I had was a few years ago and that really wasn't that successful either. I guess I can't really go on one date every few years and expect that things are going to miraculously go my way. I need to get out more, a lot more/

I guess on the social aspect me going for the supervisor training is a big plus, I mean it could still end in a major major failure and emotionally cripple me but I guess i'm getting more of a chance to talk to other people in a more professional way.

Free Time

I wrote in my last post about the fact that I might not have a lot of free time to myself if I do manage to make it onto the supervisor course for my job. I have the weekend off of work and so far i'm not making good use of my time off. I did manage to go into town and trade in some of the games that I wasn't playing anymore, there were a lot of them, I managed to make about £70 off of them, it all went into my Game card so at least I can't spend it on something other than a game. I know I need to use my money more efficiently now that i'm saving. Saving for what I still don't know!

When I was in town I also bought some things which I guess can be considered to be very adult purchases. I bought face cloths! Apart from the usual toiletries like deodorant and toothbrushes and the like, i've never really bought much of my own things for the home. I've never bought pillows or furniture or anything like that. I guess now that I have the money i'm thinking about the things that might actually make me more comfortable at home, the essential things that most functioning adults might buy on a regular basis, we all know i'm far from being considered fully functioning adult though, that's a well established fact. 

I have a sad existence if i'm so proud about buying face cloths, like it's some major accomplishment in life. To be honest I don't buy much apart from games and books, maybe clothes the odd time. I should definitely start taking a look and see what things i've been missing out on buying and see if I can brighten my room and life up a bit, it definitely needs something more. My room still does look like a teenager lives in it. 

I wonder what my first apartment will look like if I ever move out of my parents house. Hahahahahahahaha, me move out? Honestly though I do wonder what kind of place I could see myself living in. I guess i'd want to live somewhere relatively spacious with all of the traditional amenities. I don't want to live somewhere where I have to share living space, utilities or a kitchen with other apartments like you might see in university dorms. I wonder if I could have actually managed to survive on my own in a place like that? You hear stories and see it on TV all the time, the college/university dorm life. Is that something I could ever do? Is it too late for me to experience that? I know I can still go to university but would I ever go and life on campus in a place like that? I really don't know. I guess it could still happen.

I know I would definitely like some roommates if I moved out. Sure you can do whatever you want if you live alone but I know that I would lonely far too easily if I just lived by myself. I know I would want to live with at least one or two other people.

I've definitely lived a sheltered life if i'm thinking about these kinds of things for the first time. I've been spoiled for far too long if I haven't experienced these kinds of things for myself. What other things have I been missing out on? I know for definite that I don't consider myself an adult just yet, I may be getting there somewhat but I still have a long way to go before I can considered to be independent.

I definitely want to be able to drive. Driving sort of just went to the back of my mind after I failed my dring test a few times. I guess at the time I didn't really need to be able to drive. I do now though, it would greatly benefit my life in a lot of ways. I really want to just take a drive along the coast or even just take a drive though the parts of Belfast i've never been to before, I still feel like I know my city at all. There are tourists who've probably seen more of my city than I have and I live here for god's sake!