Time

It seems like i'll be having a lot of time off for the next few weeks, there doesn't seem to be a lot of work at the minute, with only a few sparse days each week i'll have plenty of time to myself. I really should try and be productive and do what I can to be productive and maybe learn something new.

It seemed like when I didn't have a job I could keep myself occupied for hours without getting bored. That's not the case now though. Having to try and plan my time accordingly is still a major problem for me. I'm just not an organised person at all, maybe it's because I have some ADD issues or maybe i'm just lazy in general, I just can't stick to a schedule and I can't keep myself from getting distracted. Getting distracted is one of my biggest flaws, who knows what I could get done if I managed to sit down and make the effort to read or to listen to a podcast or watch some type of informative video. I can do half of those things at a quarter attention, I try to do them all at the same time, that's where the dilemma is.

Looking back at my childhood I was always easily distracted. I was medicated for a few years, I was taking Ritalin during Primary School and into secondary school. Should I have kept taking it as I got older? I don't know the answer to that question but in my opinion the answer is probably yes, a great big resounding yes as well.

When I was young I couldn't sit still to do anything,  I always wanted to move around, I never wanted to sit still and do homework, i'm surprised I managed to do any homework at all. I have to thank my parents though, without their help I probably wouldn't have finished primary school on time and I definitely would have been held back even further in secondary school.

Now that i'm a lot older I wonder if I would be able to make it through school again, would my issued be even greater than they were when I was younger? Has my attention span taken an even bigger dive? Maybe it's because i'm always tired now because of work or I have too many devices on at once, I can only take in so much at one time, I can't keep track of what i'm doing anymore. I try and read an interesting blog post or news story and I find another one that interests me as well so I change to that while leaving the other one unfinished.

That's the way things go with some books as well, I have a mountain of books that I haven't finished or haven't even made an attempt at yet. I just buy book after book and then just ad them to the pile.

I guess it does seem like i'm making some progress with this blog post, usually I would have been distracted by something and moved on leaving this unfinished but I guess today i'm sticking to it.

I want to get back to the gym and lose the pounds i've been gaining, or at least just try and get slightly less unfit and make myself look slightly more flattering to look at.

Getting a proper nights rest is probably a good start though, my sleeping pattern is always going to be fucked up and I know i'm not doing myself any favours by staying up any later.